For the last couple weeks, I told myself that I need a hour or so nap so I can function throughout my day, so I can have the energy to wake up from the nap feeling refreshed. So I can do my homework and assignments from both high school and college.
That never happened.
That, meaning, I never woke up from my so called "hour nap." Well, I actually did wake up and somehow turned off my alarm and then fell back asleep. When I open my eyes again, it was 0430 or 0530. Which means I wake up just in time to get ready for my day. This means that I never woke up in the middle of the night, which means that assignments weren't done. And that means the assignments weren't turned in. We're not talking about puny high school assignments, the work that's not getting done are college assignments. Assignments that the instructors DO NOT take late.
I'm thinking this is a huge FML, what do you guys think?
Anyways, I'm not sure why this is happening. Never before have I have the problem of waking up in the middle of the night to finish up my homework. Never before have I miss an assignment, let alone a college assignment. And now, it happened more than twice in the matter of two weeks.
I think I'm horrible with time management
I don't know what I'm doing wrong or what I'm doing. I don't know why this is suddenly happening and truly don't want to push every reasoning to the fact that Mom passed away. So I'm kind of lost and at the same time frustrated. I am NOT a fan of waking up and realizing I am late for class or school. I am NOT a fan of having Sarah as my alarm clock and I am certainly NOT a fan of not turning my assignments in on time.
But I don't know how to fix this situation.
That's the one only problem. Other thing is that I am finding myself losing motivation to do a lot of things, especially homework/assignments. Just like this past weekend, I told myself I need to finish all my homework on Saturday but that never happened. Now, days later, I am stomped with assignments that were supposed to be due last week: read 5 chapters and finish reading assignments; 2 staff reports; 3 section of math homework; math take home quiz; English paper and a lot more stuff I can't remember right now.
Needless to say, once again, I am frustrated. This have never happened before in my life and now, I am finding myself procrastinate more often, losing motivation to do my work, sleeping in when I'm not supposed to, not turning in my assignments, and so much more.
I'm at a loss cause on what I can do to fix this problem. I send an email to Dad earlier today and well...I have a feeling I'm going to get my butt smoked out for these reasons. I just don't know how to manage my time with what I need to do: take care of Sarah; take care of the chores around the house; make sure I get my high school and college assignments in; study for high school and college test/quiz; get to school on time; make sure I go to my Physical Therapy sessions (Confessions time, I haven't been to PT for weeks) and actually get a good night sleep (or at least not sleep through the night when I'm supposed to be doing my assignments)
Guess I know how single parent feels now. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing.
If you have any ideas how I can manage my time better, please contact me or tweet/DM me because I need help. I can't make a habit of not turning in assignments, it'll hurt and kill my college GPA/grades, the grades/GPA that truly matters.
Time management and Matt does NOT get along, at all.
Hopefully we will get along soon, for my grades/health's sake.
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I have never been very good with Time Management and let me tell you it has kicked me many times. THe best trick I have found is to work 45 minutes and then give myself 5-15 min break and then go back to work...or even a hour on 15 off works well.
Best of luck Matt!!!
I think you are being too hard on yourself. I understand your frustration but the loss of your mother and the changes DO have an affect. You have a lot more responsibilities and you are grieving...it's not a time management issue Matt, you are learning a new normal and that takes time.
Make sure you are eating well, drinking water and getting rest. It's hard to take care of an infant and do everything else.
Matt,
Talk to your counsler. What you are going through is very normal. With loosing your Mom, Dad away and you taking care of your sister. You havent even begun the grieving process. You do need to let your Dad know what is happening. You have a LOT on your plate right now. Do not be hard on yourself. Talk to someone, a school counselor would be the best. I am always here if you need me ok?
Rochelle
Maybe it's not time management at all, Nadine, I don't know. Guess I am trying to learn this new norm. I'm eating ok, eat when I feel like cooking and what not. Water of course and rest when I can. Thank you.
I talked to my counselor, Rochelle. She and I will talk more till last day of school. Hopefully it'll help in some way. I can't deal with this like this anymore. Keep going like this, I'll do more harm to myself and I don't want that, at all. Thanks.
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