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Sunday, May 30, 2010

Please Remember 'Em

Spend most of the day at Arlington today. Grandpa said more inspiring things than he ever did before. Wish I had a recorder so I can record everything he said.

We stopped by and saw mostly friends and family at Arlington. Grandpa introduced me to people that he knew and served with. They were his friends, his battle-buddies, and now, my friends and heroes. Grandpa even introduced me to some of my Dad's or Uncle's or Aunt's battle-buddies, "I remember seeing 'em grow up!" he would tell me. And just like that, the letters on the graves were not just letters, they were a person and they all had a story to tell.

I'm glad I got to know more about all of 'em. It was as if they were talking right to me and sharing their stories and life with me. From their first step to their BCT stories. It just felt surreal.



We then walked around and read many names at Arlington. We may not know all of the heroes that laid to rest here in this sacred place, but we remember 'em as brothers, sisters, sons, daughters, fathers, mothers, and most of all heroes.



Grandpa and I found our way to Section 27 of Arlington and saw the grave of Pvt. William H. Christman, the first soldier to laid to rest here in Arlington. His grave mark was old and worn out. And in ways, it felt very lonely. It's been over 130 years since Pvt. Christman was laid to his final resting place. And I wondered if any one of his family, relatives, or descendants still visit him today.



"Sometimes, our busy lives make us forget what is truly important, son." Grandpa said, "And with time, a hero like Pvt. Christman is put in the back of people's mind and eventually forgotten. It's a scary thing, kid."

Like a child I told him I was scared. Scared that one day, 130+ years later, people won't remember our fallen and what they've done for us. People won't remember heroes like Pvt. William H. Christman and someday, their graves will be lonely and forever forgotten.

Grandpa said he is afraid of that also. But, "this is why we do this every year, son. So the tradition carries on, so generations and generations after you will remember these heroes for what they've done for this country. We can only hope that there are many many more family that does this every year, so 130 some years later, the country as a whole would still remember our heroes."

We spend hours with Pvt. Christman. We talked about the most random things with him. We told him the things that happened years after he was laid to rest. We told him how the world have changed 130+ years later. And we laughed, knowing that "internet" and "cell phones" would confuse the hell out someone who fought with the Union Army. But we told him anyways, we thought he should know.

Before we left, we stood in silence and saluted Pvt. Christman and hope that he knows generations after him have not forgot about what he did. In hopes that he doesn't feel alone and forgotten. I truly hope that generations from now, people will not forget what all these heroes have done. I truly hope that someone will continue to tell their stories so these heroes may never ever be forgotten.



In 1868, on May 30th, Memorial Day (it was known as Decoration Day) was observed for the first time. Now, 142 years later ask yourself, what have you done to remember our fallen heroes. What have you done to think about every single one of 'em. If you did nothing more than BBQ and shop, I urge to you think of heroes like Pvt. Christman who make your BBQing and shopping possible. Please remember 'em, because it is truly a scary thing if 130+ years later, these heroes are nothing but letters on a worn out grave.

You can read more about Pvt. William H. Christman here in an article written by R. David Christman (U.S Army Retired) and Charles Kerchner (U.S. Navy Retired) there's a copy of the letter Pvt. Christman wrote to his Mom on April 3, 1864 and more.

Thank you, Pvt. Christman, for allowing me and Grandpa to visit you today and thank you for hearing us go on and on about the world today. I know internet and cell phones just sound absurd to you but, again, we thought you should know.


Drawn by John Cole, Scranton, PA, The Times

Thank you to all the fallen heroes. I will do everything I can to ensure that 130+ years later, you are not forgotten. Thank you.

Friday, May 22, 2009

One of those days...

If you're not fund of people bitching out and being all "emo" I suggest you stop reading right now. Don't say I didn't warn you because yes, I am having a very very bad day and really, just one of those days.

During a times when technology is so powerful, I at times found it amazing what the power of the internet can teach you about the world and even the people.

From one stranger's word about football, all-American, championship rings. You tend to wonder if all of it was even true. But in the back of your head, you can't help but wonder the what ifs. And today...this Friday morning, I am wondering what if. I am thinking the "sure be nice to do something for a change"

You read the words and wondering if the person on the other end of it actually know what he's talking about. You wonder if he will ever take your advice and somewhere in the back of your head, you wonder if you could ever be who you want to be many years ago.

Playing for Ohio State, USC, or even Florida was my dream. Playing college football, no matter what school, was my ultimate happiness. From the days of running the plays during football camp to summer training, it was my life. I truly was happy. I couldn't wait for the night to be over with and day to start just so I can put on the pads and go running for miles. I was on top of the world and really I could care less where I run to and how far. I was having fun and I was happy.

Seems sort of funny now thinking back to the bets everyone in the family made with another about who will have the most yards by the time they graduate high school. We even had all the records written down on paper. And seems like every morning, it'd be on the fridge calling out my name, calling me out to motivate me to get just one yard farther than I did before.

I never thought myself to be an over achiever or even someone who set outrageous goals. Thinking maybe, just maybe I can get enough yards to fill a football field worth, I'd be happy. I still remember the sheet of paper on our fridge, every morning I'd take a look at it and every morning, that number stared right back at me.

Funny when you even set goals for one game and my first official game, I gave myself a small number for no other reason other than I want to have fun. Nothing but good old American football and a couple hits, couple yards and nothing else would matter. I still remember my Dad jokingly said to me, "Get 5 TDs and I will buy you a car, no I will buy you anything."

And to think I was even close enough to hit that mark...

Now, almost 3 years later, I am wondering the what ifs. I am wondering what would have happened that night and how many TDs and yards I would have gained. My mind started to wonder and slowly...what once was my happiness turned into hungry vultures eating slowly away at my heart and soul.

I'm not going to lie, I threw things I broke things to try and release this anger, this sadness and pain. But I am constantly reminded of what happened. Of who I am now and who I will be for a long time. And really, once your mind start to wonder, it's hard to pull it back.

It'd be great if I can do something else for a change...even if it's just for a couple hours...